Life Partner
Is it possible to forget the value of having a life partner? To have lived independently for some time that you lose touch of the "need" to fill your life with another living being - someone you call "mine"?
Throughout this MCO, I've been hit with waves of guilt, hope and a sense of pride (read: ego). One moment I am proud of being strong and independent; the next, I am left wondering (and quite convinced) that I would die a lonely death. Which, of course, the humour and irony is not lost on me since we all die alone eventually, anyway.
So it begs the question. Why do we need a life partner?
Companionship. Sharing. Love. Someone to hold and hug. These might be some of the immediate reasons but are they all hogwash and are we victims of brainwashing by Hollywood and tradition?
Frankly, I don't yet have an answer. My pessimistic self tends to speak louder when it comes to this and I am still convinced that I will be alone for quite some time.
Funny that everyone around me seem to be more confident than I am about my future. Even my doctor - who I've only met once, was so confident I would find someone very soon.
But what if all good men were taken? And all I am left with are scraps of the unwanted and forgotten? What if I end up making rash decisions and live forever to regret?
I thought I knew all the answers to these a long while ago. So sure and full of belief in love. Had I lost it and that's why I am in this state? Or is this a punishment? Will I ever find someone i can call my own or will I forget the value of having a life partner?
Throughout this MCO, I've been hit with waves of guilt, hope and a sense of pride (read: ego). One moment I am proud of being strong and independent; the next, I am left wondering (and quite convinced) that I would die a lonely death. Which, of course, the humour and irony is not lost on me since we all die alone eventually, anyway.
So it begs the question. Why do we need a life partner?
Companionship. Sharing. Love. Someone to hold and hug. These might be some of the immediate reasons but are they all hogwash and are we victims of brainwashing by Hollywood and tradition?
Frankly, I don't yet have an answer. My pessimistic self tends to speak louder when it comes to this and I am still convinced that I will be alone for quite some time.
Funny that everyone around me seem to be more confident than I am about my future. Even my doctor - who I've only met once, was so confident I would find someone very soon.
But what if all good men were taken? And all I am left with are scraps of the unwanted and forgotten? What if I end up making rash decisions and live forever to regret?
I thought I knew all the answers to these a long while ago. So sure and full of belief in love. Had I lost it and that's why I am in this state? Or is this a punishment? Will I ever find someone i can call my own or will I forget the value of having a life partner?
Do not lose hope! Jiayou!
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