A Haunting

How is it that despite my greatest efforts to escape the shadows of you, you are still there; lurking in the dark?

It is almost as though you are taunting me...

...punishing me for letting us go. 

But did I? 

Even after two years, the days leading up to where we are today is still etched in my mind. Was I at fault? 

I replay the scenes over and over, and over again. I still continue to analyse everything we said and till today, I am still torn apart. 

Did I not fight for us? 

Was it worth fighting for us when you couldn’t even see me in your life as your partner?

If you loved someone so much it hurts, but they lost hope, is it worth reminding them? 

But then it hits me. You did. You fought for us when I lost hope. You reminded me of us.

And now I’m left wondering, was it me? Had I been the one that lost hope once more?