Post It #2

I know I made this decision to stay on. I know it was my determination and stubbornness to want to explore and experiment every thing new. 

But it has caused so much unhappiness. The ripple effect now coming back to me in ten folds. 

I miss everything. Perhaps reality has set in. Perhaps fear has now found a new home in my mind.

I'm just not sure i am quite as strong as before. Nor do I feel that I am as determined as before. 

The wait is killing me. And huge part of me is praying...wishing....hoping...that I would head back home. Because, the truth is, I left my heart with you.